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Wednesday, January 28th, 2009
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12:42 am - STRESS
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So like Beth and I said only like four people read this stuff so we can say what we want.
First off if anyone asks, I am MAX stressed and I kinda wanna die. Every year at this exact time i feel like diving off a plane with no para shoot just waiting to feel my body go numb and pass out or something. Im in chagre of the Vag monos, in 2 shows, and dealing with MONSTERS of people all week in FR every single night for YMTC. Dealing with nonsensical bull shit from people who dont appreciate the art i love. I also have to prepare for NETC's and my mind is not ready for that. And then shitackies load of school work ads on to my disasterous life.
O then there is my heart.
I TRIED to not like anyone bc basically men make me insane, and being alone always sounds better then worrying about a man.
I dunno then I met Nick.
At first I was like sex yum.
Then we went to B-fast and he paid and I got a lil crush but i was like nope not letting it happen.
I got asked on a date by Dan Chiassion and he is great, but....lets be real I like Nick.
I only decided this when we discussed how we were the same person and how he was gonna be my Valentines date for Vag monologues...and i got smitts.
BUT
issue being
nothing is serious
and i dont want SERIOUS
but i dont want Alley and Kevin 2006
which was me pouring my heart out and me having to be a sex object and small date taker for like six months until something happened but all the while i was emotionally a wreck and ready to explode inside for liking someone so much and giving it all i have...and.
i wish men loved women like women love men.
maybe ill get lucky, if not i guess i can call dan chaisson up...right?
i dont like liking men. it makes me naseous.
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Friday, January 9th, 2009
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7:58 pm - Damn Fran man Stan FUCK
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You know what I need?
A bottle of rum, 3 Tylenol, some sex, and a deep breath because I may explode if I don't.
current mood:  pissed off
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Sunday, December 28th, 2008
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10:39 pm
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Lets be honest, life would be easier A sexual.
I mean nothing has changed, nothing is bad, things are still good, but for real...so much easier without men...and i don't say to go lesbian because I imagine girls are lame to deal with too.
Like come on, all day thinking about someone, wondering if they are thinking about you, wondering when the next call or text will be, thinking about what they are doing or who they are with.
LAME.
I would rather be thinking of other things!
Like, "Alley go get a job over break, Alley shopping is fin go spend the money you don't have, Alley go watch Tv and check your facebook without stalking the hell out of someone"
But no Alley thinks, "I wonder what he is doing, do you think he thinks about me too, did he respond to that facebook message, oh lemme see if there are more pics up of him...nope there is not...maybe a comment....nope...any new info...nope same...Alley didnt you just check that an hour ago, oh right you did!"
I dunno liking someone is more of a hassle then being single. The best part of being in something like this is. *drum roll for the sarcasm* I'm not even dating them!
Its Alley meeting Kevin all over again with a happier start, and he is not dating someone else...or...I won't go there...
Damn BUTTERFLIES get outttta meh belllly!
What can you do?
Nada.
Just figured someone else would understand.
bye!
current mood: perioding
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Thursday, December 18th, 2008
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11:54 pm
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| Saturday, December 13th, 2008
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11:38 pm
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| Thursday, December 11th, 2008
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12:43 am
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So Brian and I decided LJ was something we have not seen in awhile and its funny to post.
Lets brief some thoughts shall we:
We both concur that we have lost Lauren.
She loves someone more then us.
They met 2 weeks ago.
Alley says she likes a boy ALOT.
He makes me fall down in splendor.
Not so sure about it though.
Hopefully I'll get lucky
Brian says Allan grab on.
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Tuesday, August 12th, 2008
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11:29 am
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no matter what you say to people or what you do to make me unhappy, I am happy and you cant change that
<3
go me.
current mood:  happy
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Wednesday, April 30th, 2008
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11:38 pm
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Wanna read my blogs out loud read this one:
Your a piece of shit.
;-)
current mood: chipper
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Friday, April 25th, 2008
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5:45 pm
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Saw you today, makes me my day sad and gray
Find the beat that cuts through my veins
That person who will treat you poor and use your joints
Its sad and done you've ruled out our past
Its time for me to be free at last
Over and done your not the one
I have found my calling someone where new
Hope your life is far from mine
Leave soon, and I never want to see you
Not again your stained loins are bruised
I don't need to ask....
people like you do things like that.
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Friday, April 11th, 2008
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4:24 am
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You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Tuesday, April 8th, 2008
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3:24 pm
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Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting
And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight
This could be the one last chance
To make you understand
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you...
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Monday, February 4th, 2008
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2:00 am
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Youve got your ball
Youve got your chain
Tied to me tight tie me up again
Whos got their claws
In you my friend
Into your heart Ill beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
And sweet you roll
Lost for you Im so lost for you
You come crash into me
And I come into you
I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream
Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
Im bare boned and crazy for you
When you come crash
Into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream
If Ive gone overboard
Then Im begging you
To forgive me
In my haste
When Im holding you so girl
Close to me
Oh and you come crash
Into me, baby
And I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
In a boys dream.. in a boys dream
Oh I watch you there
Through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing but you
Wear it so well
Tied up and twisted
The way Id like to be
For you, for me, come crash
Into me
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Monday, May 21st, 2007
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8:28 pm - Summer Update
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Soo school has been over for a week now. Passed all my classes really nicely may I add.
I start a class at BCC on Tuesday.
Casey just did awesome as Dickon in "The Secret Garden".
Im going to Maine for the Eccentric Performing Camp for two weeks in Jult/August.
Godsmack concert on Friday.
Dream Theater concerts after the camp
Florida with Kevin or Maggie hopefully the week after the camp.
Looking at auditions for the summer and jobs and...
Things with Kevin are lovingly <3
current music: ::I walk Beside You:: Dream Theater
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Umm guys...: >>Thats terrible..
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| Sunday, May 6th, 2007
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5:11 pm
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So since not many people read this I wont feel like ppl will think im trying to get attention but.....
im so excited.
I GOT AN IRENE RYAN!
That makes me so happy :-)
current mood: ecstatic
current music: ::I Miss You:: INCUBUS
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Umm guys...: 4 Screamed - >>Thats terrible..
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| Saturday, April 7th, 2007
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8:12 pm - One
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A story in the midst
A girl, a boy, a kiss
The sun will start to rise and sing a song
A time that is so right
The will, the love, the might
And maybe this is what keeps us strong
The pages turn, the lessons learned
The reason we are still alive tonight
The battle of the best, has laid it all to rest
The girl, the boy, this kiss has all been earned
Dance with the moonlight
Bathe in the waters
The touch of your hand
Meets our bodies in the sand
And makes us one
The night begins to fall
Our hearts still have it all
What is so right carries us along
The stars up in the sky
Brings tears to my eye
And it will have no wrong
The man he talks, the girl she walk
Your fingers on my skin
The sun will rise, your beaming eyes
The girl, the boy, the kiss, they do not talk
Dance with the moonlight
Bathe in the waters
The touch of your hand
Meets our bodies in the sand
And makes us one
And when the day is new
They will be coming back to you
Gazing in your mind
Their troubles all behind
And the time has come for you to find
Dance with the moonlight
Bathe in the waters
The touch of your hand
Meets our bodies in the sand
And makes us one
Makes us as one
Makes us as one
current mood: chipper
current music: This Song
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